Self Care Makes it a Little Better

I feel that I should report on today since I blogged about the cluster fuck that was yesterday. That’s the thing though, regardless of whether or not a person has a chronic illness, there will be bad days and good days. Believe me, I do not blog about all of my bad days, my meh days or my good days. Yesterday was just a culmination of the perfect shit storm that made me feel overwhelmed, insufficient, worthless and a bad mom.

Today, I had the boys do PE and told them they could have video games the rest of the day. Don’t judge me, their teachers will start online schooling on Monday so they can have a 3 day weekend.

This not only made them happy but gave me the opportunity for self care that I am so incredibly terrible at. But first, it allowed me to start the complete wipe and reset of my oldest son’s laptop. We set up rules and yet they seem so hard to follow. I worked in IT and my brain doesn’t work as well as it used to. I did not plan on spending my entire day looking for all the numerous malware and spyware he installed by installing some other bullshit extension without reading the fine print. I started around 7 hours ago and it’s currently at 54%.

The point is, today was better. I finally got some sleep, I may not have gotten any peace or quiet but I did have some time to listen to a podcast and cut shirts for my husband’s t-shirt blanket.

While my body is still recovering, very slowly I might add, I need to remind myself that it won’t if I don’t do the required “nothing” and rest.